I was doing fine-really was. Then the wife found a pack of cigarettes in her desk-that was the reason we started up again.
But this time, the Mrs. go sick and I pointed out to her that she was starting to sound like my own mother (1 1/2 pack a day smoker) at about the same age.
I guess there's a point when all the abuse you put your body through in your 20's and 30's catches up to you and your 40's teach you about your own mortality. First those you looked to your whole life start dying off, then some of your friends start dying from sudden heart attacks, are diagnosed with cancer, people your own age are in really responsible jobs then the next thing you know, someone YOUNGER than yourself is named as a Vice-President running mate.
You start to understand that your generation is starting to run things and we may (or may not) have a clue what to do.
So anyway, the wife get's a "coughing fit" and she hacked and hacked for about 4 or five minutes, her face turned red, then purple and when it was over, she was bent over trying to catch her breath and I said, "You sound just like my mother use to sound." She turned a little white at that comment and I explained a little more in-detail about my mothers long, slow, agonizing, downward death spiral until she finally left us in May or 2004. I'm convinced that had Mom been able to kick the habit years ago, she might still have lived another 5 or 10 years in reasonably good health. She had just about every cardiopulmonary problem you can name, all of them smoking related and her last days on this rock were pretty miserable.
My wife said she was ready to quit-so we're trying again. I have those nicotine lozenges that taste like castor oil covered in mint but I think I'm finally learning how to control the cravings, we'll just have to wait and see what shakes out with the wife, can she stand it?
Hopefully since we're both out of cigarettes tonight, if we got to sleep and get a good nights rest and get up in the morning with no cigarettes in the house, the ash trays are gone and the lighters put up, we will simply have another go at kicking this nasty habit. The wife has a new medication that is going to cost us $125.00 per month and I reasoned with her that if we kicked the habit, we'd be able to buy the medication with no problem and still have $275.00 per month left over.
The economics of the problem speak for themself.
Wish us luck-again.
P.S., thanks for your continued support as I try to relate the experiences of trying to become an ex-smoker. The encouragement is nice to hear...